

I've been taking some time to contemplate where I'm at this summer. I'm nervous about how our life will unfold. I will continue to be patient. I've been trying to set a goal everyday to work on. I've recently realized that I'm a busybody. busy, busy, busybody. I always like to have something to do or something going on or somewhere to go. I don't like it. I was reading an article in the Ensign and Joseph B Wirthlin said, "We fill our lives with appointments, meetings, and tasks" and then act frightened at the prospect of some quiet time." Why would that be? He feared that "we might feel that the busier we are, the more important we are-as though our busyness defines our worth." On another occassion he reminded us that "being busy is not necessarily being spiritual"-for in fact, noise and busyness can actually crowd out the still, small voice of the spirit." I think I do this. I assign task after task and I'm constantly thinking hmmmm-what could I do tonight that i think I miss out on opportunities to let life unfold before me. Sometimes when I plan nothing crazy, amazing things happen that are much better than I could have ever hoped for. I'm paraphrasing here, but Neal A Maxwell talked about taking moments for quiet and contemplation. He compared it to the trees, water and grass that find their way in between the asphalt. We need to be quiet and still. Sometimes at night I think it means laying on the floor while Isaak shows me new toys and asks me to swing him. He will stay in that swing for about thirty minutes sometimes! I keep thinking of the scripture in Psalm 46:10, "Be still and know that I am God." I need to take time to be still and feel the peace and love of God in my life. So my goal this week is to work on being still.
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Sorry I haven't commented in a while... for some reason your posts don't update on my page so I didn't know you had any new ones. I'll try to be a better fan ;)
P.S. We miss you guys. Want to hang out?
P.S. I miss you like crazy! And I am reminded that I miss you like crazy everyday! Big hug!